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What do you want from me!

I swear I am not gonna stand around and let you treat me like this any longer. Not that I fight you or teach you a lesson, but at least I will do something for myself. You can say all you can, mistreat me, mentally torture and abuse me. I told you I did not like it, but you said I had to take this.

I was not going to argue with you on what you could not do to me. I just knew what you did was hurting me and did not help the situations. You beat my confidence to the ground and I would not let this carry on - I have to save myself from this doom.

I am going to leave you. I am going away from you. I don't want your bad influence to be anywhere near my life. Go away, stay away, leave me in peace.

.. said Hans.

Broke your heart

Yes, I broke your heart.
I remember when we started I promised I would never broke your heart. And I promised you a whole lot more. I promised you the world. But now I did. I did break your heart.

I don't want to be a bad person. Someone who could not keep promises, someone just go around and hurt others. Seems like over the years I could not keep my virtue. I protected myself and on the path I broke many rules.

I forgot what brought us together in the first place. Guess it doesn't matter anymore. At this time I know we are not going to get together. We are not getting along as we wished and it means we are ending this relationship.

You asked me if I ever loved you. I thought this can be a trick question. Is love supposed to be a forever present tense, or should love be like smoke that it existed and then it's not. At one point when we were happy and having fun, I felt the love. Now, I don't. So, I thought the answer was yes. But I am not sure. I could not feel love if it is not existing, I could not even tell if it happened, I am not a very calculated or rational person.

When love is not here now, knowing it was is not helping to make anyone happier. Not me, I'm sure.

.. Jane said.